Friday, October 18, 2013

An Ode to His Hair

An Ode to His Hair

It billows 
like the single scoop
ice cream we ate on a 
dusty day in Yellowstone.

As rough as buffalo's coat
but twisting coiling careening
across his scalp 
like my heart in my stomach 

And in moments of bravery
I let myself run
my hands through it 
Hair dark as the earth 
that swirled around our feet
in Hebgen Lake. 

It likes to catch  in my fingers 
like the tangled seaweed 
through my toes 
as we waded in  
the Henry's Fork 

And I tell him 
I love it
push it out as a whisper
when it's too dark to see
the strands that press against
the pillow 
And I know he doesn't understand.

The lines around
his eyes deepen  
As I hide my face 
in his chest. 

No,
he could never understand. 

Because 
How do you love
hair? 



Tuesday, September 17, 2013

A&P--A Feminist Criticism

If anything about an author can be assumed from their writing, I would most likely dub John Updike as a misogynist, who viewed woman purely for his own purposes, and as lesser creatures, and I wouldn't be the only one to say so. Upon his death The Washington Post, in their memorial article dedicated to him, mentions that, "Updike was called a misogynist, a racist and an apologist for the establishment. On purely literary grounds, he was attacked by Norman Mailer as the kind of author appreciated by readers who knew nothing about writing...", and the Guardian came out with an article that quickly stated the commentator's intent, "Updike's women: Was John Updike really a misogynist? On the evidence of the women in his fiction, yes".

Within the first paragraph alone, the sexist nature of this piece begins to unfold,   

“In walks these three girls in nothing but bathing suits. I’m in the third checkout slot, with my back to the door, so I don’t see them until they’re over by the bread. The one that caught my eye first was the one in the plaid green two –piece. She was a chunky kid, with a good tan and a sweet braod soft-looking can with those two crescents of white just under it, where the sun never seems to hit, at the top of the backs of her legs.”

Updike has already begun to describe these girls’ physical looks, because Oh my goodness! Half nekkid girls! Look! He then follows with a direct comparison to an older woman, who is pressing his patience,

"I stood there with my hand on a box of HiHo crackers trying to remember if I rang it up or not. I ring it up again and the customer starts giving me hell. She’s one of these cash-register-watchers, a witch about fifty with rouge on her cheekbones and no eyebrows, and I know it made her day to trip me up. She’d been watching cash registers forty years and probably never seen a mistake before."

Yes, young man behind the register, let’s whine about the woman who expects you to do your job without ogling at the girls, most likely, several years younger than you. She’s the villain in your story right? And let’s sum up her nature purely based on her looks and impatience for your lack of attention. That is the way to be a good worker.

Let’s also check the tally so far of women that the narrator has denigrated thus far into the piece; we have two, the girl who is “chunky” (but has a nice can, so that must make up for it, right?), and this older woman who is expecting the kid to…I don’t know…actually work. Thus far as well, not one woman has had a speaking line, but don’t get too excited or hope that this will somehow pass the Bechdel Test because there are only three lines of women speaking in this entire piece.

Later in the story the narrator says the following,

“…here was this chunky one, with the two-piece — it was bright green and the seams on the bra were still sharp and her belly was still pretty pale so I guessed she just got it (the suit) — there was this one, with one of those chubby berry-faces, the lips all bunched together under her nose, this one, and a tall one, with black hair that hadn’t quite frizzed right, and one of these sunburns right across under the eyes, and a chin that was too long — you know, the kind of girl other girls think is very “striking” and “attractive” but never quite makes it, as they very well know, which is why they like her so much — and then the third one, that wasn’t quite so tall. She was the queen.

All three of these girls are ranked in a social hierarchy by the narrator, before any of them even speak. To compound the narrator’s judgmental attitude, the rankings are solely based on the girls’ appearances. In this section as well, the narrator is also somehow able to tell the entire order and details of these girls looks based solely off of their looks, creating them into mere sexual objects, than girls with actual personalities and lives. In this paragraph alone, Updike summarizes the entire gender-based cliché, where all a girl wants is to be pretty and popular. Good job rehashing diminutive stereotypes little A&P bagger.

He then continues his judgments of the women’s characters by mentioning, “A few house-slaves in pin curlers” and women with their “varicose veins” and “six children”, because in his eyes, you have worth as a woman if you are pretty. If you aren’t pretty you are one of the “sheep” he constantly feels the need to refer to.

Even by the halfway point of the story, not one female character has spoken. Actually, none of them even have a name…or a real personality. But don’t fret dear reader! The three lines of dialogue are about to come upon us!

Lengel comes in from haggling with a truck full of cabbages on the lot and is about to scuttle into that door marked MANAGER behind which he hides all day when the girls touch his eye. Lengel’s pretty dreary, teaches Sunday school and the rest, but he doesn’t miss that much. He comes over and says, “Girls, this isn’t the beach.”
Queenie blushes, though maybe it’s just a brush of sunburn I was noticing for the first time, now that she was so close. “My mother asked me to pick up a jar of herring snacks.” Her voice kind of startled me, the way voices do when you see the people first, coming out so flat and dumb yet kind of tony, too, the way it ticked over “pick up” and “snacks.”
Oh! Look! Here we have at least our third male character, with a past, and a speaking role! But let’s not overshadow the young girl who has FINALLY spoken. As soon as she speaks, the narrator dislikes her too! He calls her voice “flat and tone, yet kind of tony”, proving yet again, the narrator derives his worth of women purely from their bodies.

“The girls, and who'd blame them, are in a hurry to get out, so I say "I quit" to Lengel quick enough for them to hear, hoping they'll stop and watch me, their unsuspected hero. They keep right on going, into the electric eye; the door flies open and they flicker across the lot to their car, Queenie and Plaid and Big Tall Goony-Goony (not that as raw material she was so bad), leaving me with Lengel and a kink in his eyebrow…
     
I look around for my girls, but they're gone, of course….my stomach kind of fell as I felt how hard the world was going to be to me hereafter”

With only several paragraphs left, you’d think the narrator would calm his misogynist self. You would think he could have seen the potential symbolism in his action to quit. He just left a job where the boss also based his entire view of people on what they wore, but no, because the girls did not flock him with pride and gratitude, because they did not respond…HIS girls (because he does possess those girls)…he is left feeling regretful and wondering how tough his life was about to become because he stood up for someone.    

Monday, September 16, 2013

"The Story of an Hour" and "The Yellow Wallpaper"

Facebook from the woman in "The Yellow Wallpaper"

Posts:

Excited for our summer trip to the estate John and I are renting!

There is something queer about this home, but all in all, it is a beautiful place. 

I think yellow is becoming my least favorite of all the colors!

John is a wonderful husband. He treats me so well, even if this room is a bit strange. 

I could really use a friend to relate to. 

I'm glad my baby is happy with Jennie taking care of her. I love her, but she does stress me out. 

This is the least domestic wall paper I have ever seen! 

I don't care how talented Weir Mitchell is supposed to be, it doesn't mean I want to see him. -_- 

I think I understand why children have imaginary friends. 

Almost time to go home! 

Photo/Meme:



Article: 

I think I can relate to the babies! 

http://thestir.cafemom.com/baby/151927/the_color_of_your_babys


Thursday, September 12, 2013

Orientation

There is the supplies closet and here is the laundry room. I clean rooms 1-15 in the hotel, and you clean the rooms 101-108 outside in the motel. These are your keys. Never knock on a door before eleven, and never knock if you know for sure the guests haven't checked out yet. Unless, however, it's a guest that is staying for another night, then check your paper work. If your paper work doesn't say anything about a stay-over go check with the laundry man first--he knows best. If you can't find him, go ask Nicole Samond, who cleans rooms 109-114. She'll check with Heather Hogans who works in the gift shop. If you knock on too many doors while the guests are still in there, you won't get your tips. 
This is your room slip. I mentioned it earlier. All of the rooms you cleaned must be checked off, initialed by you at the bottom of the paper and turned in behind the front desk at the end of the day. Here are your rubber gloves and here are your rags.
If you want hours, it’s best to pace yourself. You have six hours maximum to get all of your rooms cleaned. Some days you will only have an hour’s worth of rooms, others you will have eight hours’ worth of rooms. Figure out how to go both fast and slow, but never let Linda see you go slow or she’ll think you’re slacking and you won’t get your tips.
That is John. He’s one of our handymen. He’s been here for longer than even he’d like to admit. Be extra nice to Steve, because he knows all the secrets about working here. But don’t get too close to him, because this is his last season here. And he is ready to be done with this hotel. You can be sure of that.
That’s the men’s room over there. The women’s room is over there. Once, Megan cleaned the bathrooms with bleach while Linda was out—Linda hates bleach. She says she only did it because the sink was growing mold. We all know better though, the cleaning supplies around here doesn’t work. Megan is the overachiever. She enjoys the thrill of a job well done. We all ignore it though; we’re just here to get paid.
Antonio Reyn, who is the head laundry man, is in love with Nicole Samond, who cleans rooms 109-114. Antonio is thirty five years older than Nicole but thinks because she gave him her number for work the other day, that she is madly in love with him.  
Nicole Samond, who cleans rooms 109-114, and is oblivious and definitely not interested in Antonio Reyn’s advances, has dreams of finding the right man and having children of her own. Her work-supplied housing is filled with photos of her family and cute clothes hanging in her closet in hopes of finding the perfect man. Be sure to comment on the outfits when she wears them.
But we’ren ot supposed to know any of this, so keep quiet or else your tips might go missing.
Nicole Samond, who smiles confusedly at Antonio Reyn when he calls her beautiful, is in love for Lee Hogans, who works in the laundry room. Most of the time, Lee Hogans hardly remembers Nicole Samond even works at the hotel because Lee Hogans has eyes only for Heather Hogans who works in the gift shop. They are first cousins. No once removed. No second in there. Full blood cousins. For Heather Hogans it’s just another relationship to fill her resume of romantic adventures. For Lee Hogans, she is the sunshine of his dim, hopeless life. Lee still lives at home with his parents and his only social interaction is ultimate Frisbee with the high school kids at the city park once a week.
This is your housing. There are no windows, only the doors, so pray there isn’t a fire. I’m not even sure if they have checked out the fire alarms lately. The fire department comes once a summer, but they only check in the guests’ rooms, not the employees’ rooms. The hotel across the street burned to the ground a couple years ago.


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

The Lottery

In Shirley Jackson's, "The Lottery," one theme is Man's ability (and need) to rationalize generally unacceptable actions. The most common means Jackson uses to illustrate this idea is through her employment of tradition in the story. Perhaps the lottery in the village was necessitated in the beginning for the sake of population control, or something along those lines; however, as time passed each year the lottery continued, and each year more details to its origins were lost.  “Because so much of the ritual had been forgotten or discarded…” Jackson wrote about the ceremony, “…years and years ago…part[s] of the ritual had been allowed to lapse,” yet, because it was tradition, the villagers persisted in their ways. Not even the decrepit black box could be changed because even though there had been discussion on building a new box, the villagers objected because, “…no one wanted to upset even as much as tradition was represented by [it].” It quickly becomes apparent that while the act of the lottery is wrong and frightening—there is some evidence that the villagers fear it each year, talking in hushed tones and hardly laughing at jokes—they continue regardless, because that’s what tradition dictates. Those who object to the practice, like the north village that has entirely stopped, are deemed crazy and too young and immature to understand the importance of such ideas. People like Old Man Warner are especially vulnerable to this response, having grown up with it for 77 years and never once falling victim to it. Because the majority of the community is not impacted by the single yearly death, they have no personal drive to stop it. Probability states it won’t be them who are chosen. This changed when they are the one being stoned as Tessie Hutchison illustrated. She was begging for a second chance, after being so nonchalant about the tradition previously. Because the community members don’t feel empathy, especially since they have been participating in this act like it’s a normal exciting thing, since they were children, they don’t see what’s so horrific about the event, and if they do, they are too afraid of change to act on it.
     Much of the story reminded me of religious tradition. On a smaller level I was reminded of Christmas and Easter. Neither holiday is based solely in Christianity and both have morphed incredibly over the years to form something entirely different than their origins, yet each year the majority of Americans celebrate both—some in a very religious matter—with little regard to the way they have been shaped. On a more intense note, it reminded me of the current struggles of the LGBT community in religion. Many of the people of the older crowd—the real Old Man Warens--are claiming gay practices and relations to be wrong, while the younger crowd—like those in the story—see differently. As a young person you are crazy if you buy into the idea of equal rights for the LGBT community, even though those in the communities in many states could lose their job, housing, education, etc. among other persecutions, merely for their sexuality, much like in the story one person could die merely from the bad luck of drawing the dot. This is justified through religious tradition preaching that it’s okay to act like this way because of someone’s sexuality.
     In both real life and in “The Lottery”, tradition is used as a justification of harmful actions.
 
 
 

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Girl to Boy



Check the oil in the pickup on Monday, and clean up any mess; wash the rig on Tuesday and park it in the shade. Wear long sleeve shirts, especially in the summer; it'll keep you from burning; and a baseball cap; put your brim forward; none of that punk-ass backwards stuff those friends of yours like. Get off your butt and wash the windows; every one of them; and don't you leave streaks; only twinkie eaters sit on the couch all day. Don't let your pants sag like that; didn't I tell you to use your baling money for a belt, kid? This is how you fix something that's been broken around the house; this is how you greet your grandmother; this is how you fold military corners when you make your bed. Cut that hair of yours shorter, you look like your sister.This is how you swig a beer; this is how you chew tobacco. This is how you back the boat into the dock and don't you scratch the pick up's paint. Pull at the base not the top of those weeds when you are clearing the tomato patch. Is it true that you were with that punk ass friend of yours Jimmy when the Sheriff caught him with marijuana last week? Always cut your steak before you eat it; and never cook it rare. We're not even friends and I wasn't there. Real men don't camp in tents; don't water the lawn during the day unless you want brown grass; this is how you mow the edges. Turn off the damn lights when you leave a room; are you paying the electricity bill around here. Don't take too much food at dinner; and actually use your napkin instead of wiping your mouth on the back of your hand. Milk goes with meals, water gets drank throughout the rest of the day. This is how load your gun, this is how you fire your gun, and this is how you clean your gun after you're done shooting it. This is how you gut a deer. Don't be stupid or you'll end up spending the night with the Sheriff, and I'm not bailing you out, like those friends of yours. Always call your mom on Sunday nights and your grandma on every holiday and birthday. What if I lose Grandma's number? You mean to tell me you're not even man enough to remember your own grandma's birthday? 



Tuesday, August 27, 2013

My Introduction

My greatest asset is I am super independent.

The nicest thing I ever did for anyone was help my friend Josh propose to his now fiance Lynna. 

The nicest thing anyone ever did for me was bring me food when I was living in Yellowstone and so broke I could hardly afford ramen this summer.




One question I have about life is at the movie theater, which arm rest is yours.

One thing I've always wondered about is why do people yell heads up when you're supposed to duck.

My teachers last year will tell you that I am a little too obsessive about my work, but generally a good student.

My friends will tell you that I am "crazy" (direct quote when I asked a friend). 




People like me because...uh...that's a really good question.

One thing most people don't know about me is while I am an open book, I might tell you everything there is to know about me, but I won't tell you how any of that makes me feel.

I am an expert on cleaning bathrooms after working in housekeeping at a crappy hotel.

I want to know more about poetry.

When I am 30, I will hopefully be out of grad school and working as a lobbyist on Capitol Hill.

Five years from now, I will hopefully be at Carnegie Mellon for grad school going for my Masters in public Administration along with my JD at Pitt Law, if I get accepted into the dual degree program I have my eye on. 

When I want to, I have the ability to be super competitive.

A famous person I admire is bell hooks because she revolutionized feminism and the women's movement in the late 21st century.
The bravest thing I ever did was organize a political rally in high school.

I have trouble dealing with people who ramble on and on in class about something that doesn't actually pertain to the lecture and wastes everyone's time.

I appreciate it when teachers actually listen to students' concerns instead of just assuming they know best.

I am proud of my closest friend for always listening to my opinions and problems even though he never really understands what I'm talking about. 





I like Taco Time's cherry empandas because they taste amazing.

I really need to turn in my paperwork for work.

My favorite class is so far my International Politics class because I really enjoy politics and learning about different governments, etc..

My friends make me laugh when we go out hiking and goof around outside. 





My pet peeve is when people eat smelly loud food in class.

When I am sad I go buy the best brand of chocolate coconut milk ice cream and rock out to my favorite music. (I'm lactose intolerant). 

The most stressful thing in my life is school.

The most influential person in my life are probably my aunt and uncle because they practically raised me.

If I had one hundred dollars, I would probably save it until it was time to pay for next semester since I've already paid for this one.

I am named for where and when I was born. My middle name is Noel and I was born two weeks from Christmas in North Pole, Alaska.
It is difficult to learn how to blow bubbles with bubble gum--I still can't.

I have no regrets about dropping out of college after my first attempt.

I regret not doing better in high school. 

A friend once showed me how to have hope in things and people even when they frustrate me.

I like really weird music. Pretty much if it's from a musical most people haven't heard of, I'm going to love it.

My favorite color is orange.

One dish I can cook well is tuna casserole, while I have been craving for over a year now, but don't have an oven to cook it in.

My favorite place on earth is Harriman State Park, Idaho.